Doctors Appointment

For us a doctor visit, is different than for other people. It comes with a lot of baggage. Nechama was diasgnosed on a routine checkup. For us "what's the worst that could happen", happened.
I had a friend once who didn't have insurance, he felt confident that everything would be ok.
While for him, his experience confirmed that, that is foreign to me. I sort of feel that we are "damaged goods" Forever tainted..seeing things through discolored glasses. As beareaved parents, we see things different than other people. We relate to experiences differently. it is not always bad,in fact, many times, we appreciate small things and see life in a bigger way. We recognize the lack of permanence in this world. A bearaved parent sees life as fragile.